We had some bad news and Ramazan couldn't come over, he is still in Turkey.
I feel so selfish because I find this so hard, being here, not being able to help him, to comfort him, I can't do anything to help him. I feel so lost and not being able to be in control is so difficult. Ramazan is such a positive man, but he is wavering. We need it to get to a month since it happened, after a month he is out of the danger zone and then we focus on how to get him to wake up.
I don't know if Ramazan will ever understand thats its been hard for me being here, imagining what if this were my dad, what if this were my husband. I can't imagine it because I can't do anything, I can't work and I can't concentrate. This is such a horrible thing for him to have to go through, it just doesn't seem fair. I try and and be positive and ultimately I am positive, but sometimes I feel such despair.
I pray everyday for his dad to wake up, so his family don't have to grieve, so that they don't have to feel sadness.
namaste x
I feel so selfish because I find this so hard, being here, not being able to help him, to comfort him, I can't do anything to help him. I feel so lost and not being able to be in control is so difficult. Ramazan is such a positive man, but he is wavering. We need it to get to a month since it happened, after a month he is out of the danger zone and then we focus on how to get him to wake up.
I don't know if Ramazan will ever understand thats its been hard for me being here, imagining what if this were my dad, what if this were my husband. I can't imagine it because I can't do anything, I can't work and I can't concentrate. This is such a horrible thing for him to have to go through, it just doesn't seem fair. I try and and be positive and ultimately I am positive, but sometimes I feel such despair.
I pray everyday for his dad to wake up, so his family don't have to grieve, so that they don't have to feel sadness.
namaste x
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